5 posts tagged “friends”

I have gotten almost everything I need to get done before school starts.  I am discovering that medical schools want you to jump through many more hoops that a regular university.  I hope I haven't left anything out.

My old friend from college, Ace, has invited me to Columbia this weekend to meet his girlfriend and hear his band play.  I haven't seen him in 12 years, but we've remained in contact all this time.  I think I am going to go.  I do have things I should be doing here, but I think it would be really good for me to have an adventure this weekend.  Weekends are hard for me since Dan died - I'd mostly rather skip them.  He died on a Sunday, and just the day before is when we had our now infamous trip to New Orleans.  I find I do a lot better on the weekends if I am around people and stay busy.

Today, I am having some tummy issues and I have a headache.  I'm just sticking close to the apartment for now.  I put a load of laundry in so I can take some of the clothes I want to Columbia if I end up going.  My Netflix movies arrived so maybe it's a good sofa day.

So, how did do with that weekend goal? No goal? What did you do this weekend?

I did get quite a bit of unpacking done, but I am still not finished.  Other than that, I did some grocery shopping and vegged.  I look forward to doing more on the weekends.  I don't really know anyone here yet and I don't know the area, so I didn't really have anything else to do.  Next weekend, I may go visit my old friend Ace in Columbia, SC since it is only a 45 minute drive now.  His band is playing, and I haven't seen him in ages!  I've discovered that staying busy on the weekends is better for me since I tend to have a harder time with grief on those days.  So anyway, I did not complete my goal, but I did work on it this weekend! :)

Saying goodbye to my friends has been harder than I ever imagined it would be.  Dan's death has made saying goodbye to anyone unbearable.  I have cried on and off all day.  I've moved away before, but that was before Dan's death.  Normally, I am fiercly independent, but now I'm scared of lonliness.  I miss Dan so much, and I miss my friends and I haven't even left town yet.  Ugh, I don't know how I am going to get through this....

Well, I've had a weekend full of not going to bed before 4am.  I'm seriously too old for this.  It's been fun though.  I'm really going to miss everyone when I move in a few days. 

It's been 9 weeks since Dan died, and it still just doesn't feel as if that much time has passed.  I guess it never will.  I miss him so much the pain is almost tangible.

Brooke left this morning to move back to Michigan.  I miss her already.  I can't believe I won't be able to just drive over and see her anymore.  I need to get her in touch with some of my Detroit friends.  I think she'd really like some of them a great deal.  It's too bad she never got to meet Dan...

I can't believe how much I still have to do before I move in 3 days.  I've been procrastinating something feirce.  It's so hard to move on sometimes.  I think that while I am excited about my move and starting MCG, I'm still so aware that I am going without Dan.  He was supposed to be here too.  Even though he's gone, I guess I still feel as though I am leaving him behind...

So, I'm going out with friends tonight.  There is this new restaurant that is opening tonight.  They are doing a reservation only thing where you go and eat their food for free in exchange for feedback.  Free just happens to be the right price for me right now.  It's too bad I can't sample their wine list.  I'm on an antibiotic that makes you sick to your stomach if you drink alcohol....blah.  Oh well, at least I'm doing something "normal" tonight.